1 April 2022
“They Broke Me, They Fix Me”
By 1 April 2022, I was no longer writing polite follow-ups.
I was writing from fear.
It was real fear about losing my home, my employment, my safety, my dignity, and whatever remained of my trust in institutions that were supposed to protect people.
This email was sent to my elected representative, then Opposition Leader Chris Minns, and his Kogarah electorate officer Cheryl Han. Again. Yet another one.
By this point, I had already sent notice after notice. I had already explained that this involved workplace safety, workers compensation obligations, procedural fairness, psychological injury, and systemic failures in governance and regulatory oversight.
But what haunted me most was the feeling that nobody with authority was willing to intervene before irreversible harm occurred.
That is what this email captured.
I wrote that I was frightened nobody with authority was going to stand up for my employee and human rights.
And by then, the damage was no longer confined to me.
I described what had happened to my family, the distress, the intimidation directed toward people connected to me, and the way the situation had spread far beyond a workplace issue.
What stands out to me now is desperation mixed with clarity.
Because despite everything, I was trying to negotiate a pathway back to safety, dignity, and lawful compliance. IT WAS MY STATUTORY RIGHT! IT WAS MY HUMAN AND EMPLOYEE RIGHT.
I set out what I said were non-negotiable requirements.
I demanded that Rena Christmann not be involved in any meeting concerning my return to work. I described conduct that had caused profound harm and stated clearly that I had experienced the opposite of procedural fairness.
I asked for continuity, restoration of my accrued entitlements stolen, and recognition of the psychological injuries I said had arisen within the workplace and workers compensation system.
I was trying to save my home at the same time.
That pressure appears throughout the email.
I explained that I urgently needed proof of employment because settlement on my home was approaching, and I wrote plainly that I would not survive losing it. That required both employer and insurer discharging their WHS and workers compensation statutory obligations.
That was the truth!
People who have never lived through prolonged institutional abuse often underestimate what cumulative harm does to a person. The exhaustion becomes physical. The uncertainty invades every practical part of life. Financial survival becomes tied to whether institutions obey laws they were already required to obey.
I was still asking for cooperation. That is what Catholic Social Justice principles are about, including and especially, a commitment to the dignity of the human person. That’s what the policies and staff code of conduct are about, that’s what WHS and workers compensation laws and regulations exist for too!
I referred to the Injury Management Plan that had been issued earlier in the workers compensation process and said it needed to be implemented.
I wrote that I would not accept alternative duties outside my substantive HEW8 library role at the Strathfield campus because, by that stage, I felt as though every boundary, entitlement, and safeguard had already been stripped away.
There is another part of this email that still stays with me years later.
I asked for my staff profile, files, email access, and work history to be restored.
Because when prolonged workplace exclusion happens, it is not just income that disappears.
It is identity.
It is history.
It is belonging.
You begin to feel erased from the very institution you spent years serving.
And then came the sentence that captured exactly how the entire process had begun to feel:
“It feels like a ‘process’ of human elimination.”
That was somebody who had now spent nearly two years trying to survive systems that kept redirecting responsibility elsewhere.
Workplace processes.
HR processes.
Workers compensation processes.
Regulatory processes.
Complaint processes.
Legal processes.
Yet somehow, despite all those “processes,” the harm continued.
What was missing in all these “processes” were SAFEGUARDS!
I also asked why earlier evidence and pleas for help sent to senior university leadership had apparently resulted in no meaningful intervention.
At the end of the email, exhaustion overtook everything else.
I wrote that I was broken, traumatised, exhausted, and frightened of further loss.
And then I wrote the sentence that, even now, explains the entire workers compensation “scam”:
“They broke me, they fix me.”
That was the reality of where I was emotionally and psychologically by April 2022.
Seeking survival.
Seeking safety.
Seeking lawful intervention before everything collapsed completely.
And still, the notices continued.
And still the institutionalised wage theft continued too.
Source: contemporaneous record of events - Document 300
